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Father’s Day – What Exactly Are We Celebrating? Author Joe Heap discusses Fatherhood

August 31, 2018

About the Author

Joe Heap was born in 1986 to a biology teacher and a drama teacher, and grew up in a house that was 70% books, 25% bags of unmarked homework, 18% underpants drying on radiators, and 3% scattered Lego bricks.

He is very bad at maths.

In 2004 Joe won the Foyle Young Poet award, and his poetry has been published in several periodicals. He studied for a BA in English Literature at Stirling University and a Masters in Creative Writing at Glasgow University, during which time he ate a deep-fried Mars Bar. It was okay.

Joe is now a full-time writer, but previously worked as an editor of books for kids and young adults. He has also been a subtitler for BBC News, a face painter at a safari park and a removal man for a dental convention. Before smartphones were invented, he manned a text service where people could ‘ask any question’, but he has since forgotten most of the answers.

He lives in London with his long-suffering girlfriend, short-suffering son, and much-aggrieved tabby cat.

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Eighteen months ago, I became a dad. I prefer the word “dad” to “father”. There’s something unthreatening about being a dad. We have the “dad bod”, we tell “dad jokes”, enjoy a spot of “dad dancing”. “Father” is more authoritarian, has religious connotations, sounds distant. Darth Vader is Luke Skywalker’s father, not his dad. A father is someone who smokes a pipe in his wood-lined study, waiting to tel       l his offspring that dammit, no child of his will be seen in a discotheque.

My son is learning to run, learning to talk, and learning “the one that’s not mum” might be useful to him. I’m the one he calls for if he doesn’t want to eat his dinner, or doesn’t want to go to sleep. I’m coming into focus for him, but I can’t help but wonder what I look like through his eyes. 

What are we celebrating, when we celebrate fatherhood? It’s not as defined as motherhood. Our mum gives birth to us. Can there be any more primal relationship than mother and child?

A dad can’t perform the magic act of bringing life into the world. A dad has no fixed role. Society has expected different things from dads at different times. A dad is something unique to each of us. For some of us a dad is absence. For others a dad is our only parent. For some their dad is a role model, for others a warning of what they might become. For some love, for others hate.

I can only write about my own dad. About the teacher who always found time to teach me something new. Who taught me how to build a fire, how to whittle, how to make a decent spaghetti bolognese. Who patiently explained to me how a carburettor works, and glaciers, and the electromagnetic spectrum. (The last one on a coach journey at four in the morning. Sorry, Dad.)

I can only write about the man who hiked with us through midge-ridden forests, and swam in a North Sea so cold the seagulls kept swooping down to see if he was dead yet. The man who made me a papier-mâché space helmet that I wore obsessively until it wore out. The man who still sends me pictures he’s taken of field mice and wall lizards. 

So what kind of dad am I? What kind of dad will I be? I think it’s not for me to say. We offer ourselves up to our children — offer our interests, our knowledge, our love — and wait to see what they take away and make a part of themselves. And if we’re present, and if we’re patient, they’ll take more from us than we’ll ever know. 

I know I have. 


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