A rich, musky scent accompanies her for some minutes before its meaning arrives and the hair on her limbs bristles as though she, too, is a boar preparing to charge. Before she fully understands that the dark cluster of shrubs in front of her has transformed into muscle, bone and tusks, her body reacts, turns and runs along the just-trodden path.
Poor frightened animal body that does what it can while the knowing mind takes its time. Stand your ground and shout with authority, her mind says as the back of her thigh bursts open and the rest of her flips in the air and comes down hard. Play dead, her clever, too-slow mind instructs as her body scrambles for the nearest tree. The boar backs up, lowers its monstrous head. Her hands cling heroically to the branch as a tusk slides through her guts, then out again. The boar moves away, hooves the dirt. Its next charge will gore her all the way to heaven.
At last God takes her side, allays the pain for as long as it takes to hoist herself fully onto the branch. She lies like a hunting cat as the boar grunts its frustration at having lost its prey. Soon it lumbers away through the bushes and Agnes breathes deeply of air that no longer carries its musk.
Was her impaler one of the darlings who snuffled her belly as she lay in the leaf litter beneath this very tree? Was this punishment for abandoning them once they were no longer babes? If not that, what? Something must have caused this astonishing violence.
Her mind stops searching as her body stops trying to be anything other than still. Her blood keeps moving, though, painting the bough and feeding the soil well into the night, when the search party her father raises finds what they think is a murdered child hidden in the thick middle branches of the forest’s oldest oak.
Awake but somehow not. Pain that cannot be real. Days and nights like this, knowing and unknowing. Father murmuring and ladies praying, hot stones pressing her down and the overwhelming smell of salt brine as though she is being preserved for the season along with the excess radish crop…
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