‘I CANNOT, REPEAT cannot, go to a desert island,’ I said. I didn’t look up at Nico, who was hovering behind my chair. Instead, I continued to stare at the computer screen, trying to make sense of the spreadsheet in front of me. One thing was for sure: the data definitely didn’t show the kind of correlation Professor Bianchi had been hoping for when he hired me. This was my third attempt, and I could no longer ignore the sinking feeling in my stomach. Something was very wrong.

‘But Lyla, I’m telling you, it’s the opportunity of a lifetime. Reality TV. Reality TV.’

‘It could be the opportunity of the millennium, Nic. I can’t go with you. How am I going to get the time off?’

Was there a pattern I wasn’t seeing? Maybe if I tried adding in the previous results?

‘But don’t let me hold you back; you go. I’ll cheer you on from here.’

‘Were you not listening?’ Nico asked, the pleading in his voice now tinged with a touch of testiness. ‘I can’t go on my own. It’s a couple’s TV show. Lyla, I don’t ask for much, but Ari thinks this is make-or-break for my career. I won’t get a chance like this again. You know how long I’ve been banging my head against the wall, auditioning for God knows what. This could be it. This could be my big break.’

I pulled up the spreadsheet of the last batch of samples, clicked to plot the data again, and as the graph filled out, Nico exploded.

‘Lyla! For fuck’s sake, are you even listening to me? This is the turning point of my career and you can’t turn off your laptop for thirty seconds?’

I took a deep breath. My mother’s voice sounded in my ear: Get your head out of your phone, Lyla. . . I saved the file and swung my chair round to face my boyfriend.

‘I’m sorry. You’re right. I wasn’t listening. Tell me about it properly.’

‘It’s a new reality show. Not much of a prize, because it’s being done on a shoestring budget for a brand new streaming channel, but it’s going to be their flagship launch original, and if it takes off, the exposure could be through the roof. And Ari knows the producer, Baz. They went to uni together. Ari says he can get me in through the back door. Us, I mean.’

‘And, sorry, what’s the concept?’

‘Five couples on a desert island. Elimination format, counting down over ten weeks. I’m not sure where; Ari was saying something about Indonesia? It’s kind of Love Island meets Survivor – you have to stay coupled up to stay in. Sun, sand, sea . . . come on, Lil! It’s just what we both need. A proper holiday.’

‘But it’s not a holiday, is it? And how long did you say this would take? Ten weeks? Starting when?’

Nico shrugged.

‘No idea, but it sounded like they’re in a hurry. Ari was asking about my calendar over the next couple of months. I told him there was nothing I couldn’t move.’

I sighed.

‘I’m really sorry, Nico, maybe your calendar is empty, but mine isn’t. There’s no way I can just bugger off for the remainder of my contract, you know I can’t. Professor Bianchi would sack me, and then how would we pay the rent?’

Not with Nico’s meagre snippets of income as an aspiring actor and part-time barista, was the unspoken coda, though I didn’t say it. But Nico was shaking his head.

‘But Lyla, that’s the point. If I got this, it’d be real exposure. I could be a household name by the end of the series, we’d be talking TV roles, films, ads – you name it. It’d be proper money – regular money. House-buying money. I could take some of the pressure off you. Come on, Lil, think about it. Please?’

He pushed my laptop out of the way and moved to sit on the desk in front of me, holding out his arms, and I leaned into his embrace, resting my forehead on his chest, feeling the familiar mix of exasperation and love.

I loved Nico, I really did. And not just because he was funny, charming and extremely hot – definitely an eight or nine to my six. But he was also an incurable optimist, whereas I was a very firm rationalist. His habit of convincing himself that every rainbow ended in a pot of gold just for him – a habit that had seemed so endearing when we first met – had started to grate after two years together. Two years of me footing the bills and doing the admin and generally acting the grown-up, while Nico chased opportunities that somehow never quite materialized.

This sounded like another one of his pie-in-the-sky dreams, just like the West End musical of Twilight that it turned out no one had cleared the rights to, and just like his plan to become a YouTube acting coach. There had been so many schemes that had come to nothing, so many shows cancelled before their first episode and pilots that never got off the ground. But if I pointed any of that out, I would be the bad guy. I’d be the person who had denied Nico his chance…