The Secrets Hidden Within: Butterfly on a Pin by Alannah Hill

The Secrets Hidden Within: Butterfly on a Pin by Alannah Hill

Not since singer Marianne Faithfull published her bestselling, no-holds barred biography, Memories, Dreams and Reflections, has a high profile woman’s memoir had the power to move us to laughter and tears as Butterfly on a Pin, the remarkable memoir of Australian designer Alannah Hill.

Women the world over know Hill for her doll-like looks and the coquettish, girlie glamour of her clothes with their overblown roses and ornamentation of sequins, beading and bows. Now, with Butterfly on a Pin, her first foray into the world of books, Hill has proven herself to be a writer worth reading.

And, rightly so for Butterfly on a Pin is as lively and extrovert and eccentric as the designer herself, a poetic memoir that is by turns funny, raw, harrowingly real and truly memorable.

Hill has dubbed it ‘a memoir of love, despair and reinvention’ and indeed readers should be forewarned that she has suffered a fair few troubles in her life, including an alcoholic, neglectful father, a neurotic and emotionally callous mother, and a horrifically abusive brother. All of this hardship culminates in a particularly unforgettable and gruelling episode of Alannah’s life, in which she is physically assaulted by her brother in a public space.

So what makes this memoir so, well, memorable?

For starters, it’s her voice, her gift for parody and the pace of her writing. She seems to leap from every page. She’s the young dreamer, dressing up in Mum’s curtains and being dressed down by Auntie Sherry, a lifelong nun who views Alannah and her four siblings as ‘lazy, unfit for nothing mongrels’ a burden on her mother, Aileen.

Hill’s parents are Catholics. Dad is a lapsed one, mum, a martyr who runs a milkbar (‘known as ‘That Shocking Milkbar’), in the tiny town of Penguin on Tasmania’s north-west. A disappointed woman, she constantly tells Alannah ‘you can’t sew, nobody loves you, you can’t go to Melbourne’. Which, of course, Alannah does; running away to the mainland with $50 and six suitcases of costumes as soon as she’s 16. In the book, she recalls arriving at Melbourne airport dressed as a police officer.

It took one person to notice her style waiting tables in a cafe and offer her a job in fashion. For 16 years, she worked at Indigo boutique,in Chapel Street, South Yarra, designing her unique clothes whilst building her own eponymous brand.

At the peak of her success, she had 42 shops in partnership with Factory X and was a global sensation.

Business aside, what most readers will devour in this book is the way that Hill portrays her mother – doubtless the most complicated love she’s had throughout her life. Aileen is a complex, sometimes abrasive personality with a nasty, disapproving voice that haunts Alannah despite her immense success. Their lifelong struggle is handled with good humour and wit and it’s evident there is a deep love despite the ups and downs.

Indeed, the memoir comes full circle by the end when Hill begins to see the world through a mother’s eyes after the birth of her son. It makes for touching reading; a sometimes funny, sometimes sad story that will have you zipping through its pages.

Butterfly on a Pin is empowering, entertaining, and insightful. It resonates with readers both familiar and not with Alannah’s fashion career, dealing with bigger subjects such as family, estrangement, self-reinvention, and the limitlessness of the imagination.

About the author

Alannah Louise Hill is a designer, author and stylist. For seventeen years, she was the founder and creative director of the brand Alannah Hill, one of Australia’s most iconic fashion houses. In 2013, Alannah left her eponymous brand and in 2015 launched her new online fashion brand, Louise Love. She put it on hold to write her memoir and recover from melanoma and today lives in Melbourne with her sixteen-year-old son and her beagle dog, Jack.

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    Synopsis

    Unflinching, funny, shocking, inspiring and tender: this is a story like no other.Alannah Hill, one of Australia’s most successful fashion designers, created an international fashion brand that defied trends with ornamental, sophisticated elegance, beads, bows and vintage florals. But growing up in a milk bar in Tasmania, Alannah’s childhood was one of hardship, fear and abuse. At an early age she ran away from home with eight suitcases of costumes and a fierce determination to succeed, haunted by her mother’s refrain of ‘You’ll never amount to anything, you can’t sew, nobody likes you and you’re going to end up in a shallow grave, dear!’At the height of her success, Alannah walked the razor’s edge between two identities – the ‘good’ Alannah and the ‘mongrel bastard’ Alannah. Who was the real Alannah Hill? Reprieve came in the form of a baby boy and the realisation that becoming a mother not only changes your life, but completely refurbishes it, forever.Yet 'having it all' turned out to be another illusion. In 2013 Alannah walked away from her eponymous brand, a departure that left her coming apart at the seams. She slowly came to understand the only way she could move forward was to go back. At the heart of it all was her mother, whose loveless marriage and disappointment in life had a powerful and long-lasting effect on her daughter. It was finally time to call a truce with the past.This extraordinary book is the fierce and intelligent account of how a freckle-faced teenage runaway metamorphosed into a trailblazer and true original.
    Alannah Hill
    About the author

    Alannah Hill

    Alannah Hill is a designer, author and stylist. For seventeen years she was the founder and creative director of the brand Alannah Hill, one of Australia's most trailblazing and iconic fashion houses. In 2013 Alannah left her eponymous brand and in 2015 launched her new fashion brand LOUISE LOVE. Alannah lives in Melbourne with her sixteen-year-old son and beagle dog, Jack.

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    1. Myles Sjorberg says:

      Brutally honest & true … couldn’t put it down .. highly recommend

    2. Rosemary Connor says:

      Loved this book.
      Honest and raw.
      Funny and heartbreaking.
      Could not put it down!
      Thank you, Alannah.

    3. Barbara Ward says:

      This book should come with the following warning……..

      “Upon opening the cover be prepared to embark on a marathon read. Make sure you have a thermos of coffee, a jug of water, a bowl full of munchies and a comfy sofa or bed to lounge on and of course a jumbo box of tissues. You will be there for a while.
      You will be transfixed on this journey.

      Your emotions will run wild, you will laugh until your stomach hurts, cry all the tears from your eyes and then some.
      Once finished you will sit there linking parts of this memoir to your own memories. This will remain in your mind for days.”

      Miss Hill has an amazing natural gift as a writer and story teller.
      This combined with her wit and humour are what makes this memoir a compelling read.

      • Thank you dear Girls! I had an idea that through the darkness a light was waiting to be turned on – my memoir and all the words in between have helped but it’s the validation from readers which is really helping me now. So many heartfelt messages – I may have to hire a PA to go through them one by one! Much love and keep your comments NOT to yourself! – post them – I read them all and am thrilled I’ve touched your spirit! In a GOOD way! Love Alannah Hill

    4. Alie Summer says:

      Fabulous book Alannah and very inspiring for me personally. I’m going to write “that book” of mine now. You were literally the pink icing on my strawberry 🍓 cake that has enabled me to take the first bite, so thank you in oh so many ways.

    5. Rae says:

      From the opening sentence Butterfly on a Pin is a riveting read. This is no flowery fashion story.

      In the telling of remarkable personal experiences Alannah Hill shares with us a lesson through courageous attempts to rise above the demons of an emotionally deprived childhood

      Reading her story reinforces why we too, should ALL be brave enough to speak up about family sexual molestation with its insidious and secretive nature

      Everyone should read this book.